a great meaning to life

i’m starting to realize there’s a greater meaning to life. i feel like as everyday goes by the wiser i get and the less naive i get. i used to think that having a boyfriend was the most important thing and being popular but as you get older you realize how little these things matter. popularity? so what if you’re popular or not. like when i was younger i thought having friends was the more important thing. the more friends the better . now its the other way around. i have 7 friends. everyone else doesn’t count as a “friend” , they’re just count as associates or something. the less friends the less drama. more friends brings more drama. boyfriends ? don’t need em . why do i have to stress myself for a relationship i know is not going to last my whole life. i’m 15 turning 16 in november . the last thing i need to be is in love. & i can’t believe i thought my friends were more important than my family. my best friends are family, but as a child i thought friends were more important. i always would ditch my family for my friends. but the more people i cut off the more i realized i need my family. & no matter how much i mess up they will always stick right by me. there’s more to life than material things , material things will always be here but your friends and family won’t quit being on the computer all hours of the day & enjoy yourself . make memories , have fun . because once we’re all gone, memories is gonna be the only thing we have left. 

And it ain't no way in hell .. that I can be just friends with you.

when boys say lets stay friends they say it with the intention to be selfish and not let you go . its like they get their cake and eat it too . i know some people might not agree with me personally but i don’t think you can be friends with an ex or someone you used to have feelings for . it’ll never work . theres always some typa strings attached and shit . it’s too hard . you’ll just end up falling for them again or some feelings will be there that haven’t settled. at a break up , you just get some closure and be on your way . i just got my taste of closure now and im gonna take it and run and don’t look back. if he was willing to let you go earlier and you shouldn’t give him the benefit of the doubt to take him back. just be smart enough to let him go and move on because he doesn’t deserve us . if they’re willing to play mind games, jokes, or mess around with our emotions they’re clearly just immature and need to move on. i took my experience and learned and was out . if you wanna get over them. then delete him off facebook, aim, twitter, and your phone. especially, old texts bc at our weakest moments when we miss someone we go back and read old convos . i know its hard but its the only way you’ll get over him . just because i can’t be friends w/ my ex doesn’t mean that i dont care . its just its too hard . what if you guys become close and he shares his love life with you. i know i’d be broken. but i know that if anything happened to him where he was in danger id be there <3.